I had my 34 week appointment today and even though I'm getting to that "miserable pregnant" stage where I am so ready to have this baby I am getting more nervous that my wish my come true. After my visit with the doctor today she said she doubts we will even make it to my due date. And, the "C" word was also used. :(
After my last appointment two weeks ago my blood pressure was higher than my Dr. would like. Since I have a clinic where I work she asked that I have them take my blood pressure each day. One day it got over the 140/90 mark and she sent me home for some bed rest. She sent us up to labor and delivery that evening because it wasn't coming down so they could take my blood and check my urine for protein, which is a sign of pre-eclampsia.
After today there is still some protein in my urine and my blood pressure is still elevated. There's really nothing we can do. The simplest reason my doctor gave was that it's hot out which causes swelling and when you swell your blood pressure rises. Plus, being pregnant can just cause some women's blood pressure. But, today was the first day the "C" word was used and I'm pretty scared. Ok, really, really, very, very scared. I do not want a C-section. My Dr. doesn't want one either but at this point all we can do is wait and see. She told me to take it easy and try not to worry. Ha! She knows me and knows that I am able to take it easy but the "not worry" part is very hard for me. I'll be heading in every week now instead of waiting until the 36th week to start going weekly so we can watch and monitor how I'm doing.
I'm praying and ask that you pray that it doesn't come to me having to have a c-section and I can naturally deliver this baby. Early or late I don't care, just a healthy, natural delivery. With most things though pregnancy is never, ever planned. You can write out a plan or talk about a plan or hope for the way things you wish they'd go but pregnancy and delivery is something you really have to put in God's hands and roll with the punches. So many things can happen and while most deliveries are un-eventful and perfect, you have to be prepared for something else and not freak out. (Right now I am not freaking out...promise. Haha!!) I know I am in good hands and my doctor wants the best for me. I know that whatever happens the end result is a precious little baby. So, I'm praying for God to take away my worries and keep this baby and me healthy. On the (somewhat) bright side, with this news today I am going to be able to prepare myself for some other things I wasn't planning for and hopefully it'll all be for nothing!