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Things to remember: Jesus's name, Amen.

Tonight my parents came to dinner and Anna was so into giving them a show. Normally she is pretty shy. Anna loves to repeat things. She loves to sing the same song over and over, loves to do the same "peek-a-boo-tickle-you" game, etc... So we play along  then say, "last time" so she knows it's the last time we will play or sing whatever it is. Tonight we prayed before supper and in the middle Anna asked to pray again. Of course we say yes so she says, "jesus's name. Amen." (the ending of our prayer is always, "in Jesus's name, amen") so Anna prayed about three times we said, ok. That's enough." Of course her response was, "last time, okay?!" :) we did let her pray one last time. She also sang trust in the lord about five times...the girl loves to repeat.

Pregnancy #2: 21 weeks

How Far Along: 21 weeks - It's been 6 weeks since I've updated on Baby #2 macy and I have 6 weeks left in my second trimester...this pregnancy is flying by.

Fruit: baby is the size of a large banana or the length of a carrot depending on which site you reference. :) You say carrot I say banana...it's all the same, really. Except a carrot isn't a fruit.


Size: three-quarters of a pound, about 10.5 inches long


Baby changes: Macy is now able to taste! As she swallows a bit of amniotic fluid each day she's eating whatever is on my menu. :)

Best Moment this week: Macy is on the move. She's much more active then I remember Anna being.

Gender: Girl! Macy Jane!

Movement: Lots of movement

Food Craving: Nothing really

What I miss: Sleeping through the night

Sleep: See above...I miss it


What I am looking forward to: My next appointment. We will get another sonogram because the 20 week anatomy scan Macy was facing my back and we couldn't get all the measurements they needed. Everything looks good. They are also goign to continue watching the placement of my placenta...it's close to ther cervix and they want to make sure it moves and isn't total placenta previa.


Symptoms: growing pains here and there, some braxton hicks if I'm really active that day, sore lower back....I think that's it for now. :)

　

Total weight gain/ Loss {ya right}: It's good and I'm not sure of the official number. I have a new doctor (totally sad my doctor of 18+ years isn't taking new pregnancy patients) but her nurse isn't good about telling me, "you've gained X amount" or really anything like my old doctor's nurse was.

Maternity clothes? Yes!

Have you started to show yet? yes

Labor signs: No

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Mood? I have my days :)

Things to Remember: Car Ride Chats

Last night we went to Kuhl Yogurt with my sister and her family and on the way home Blake and I started talking and were actually able to without interruption. It's funny how the second Anna hears us talking she interrupts with a "mommy" or "daddy" and then "uh, uh, uh, uh....you like riding in the car?" All the "uh's" until she thinks of something to say. Juuuuust to maek sure we are still focusing only on her. :) But, last night she got quiet and then I heard her whispering in the back seat. She was staring out the window and I put my finger up to Blake to signal hold on and I tilted my head towards the backseat. Anna was happily talking to herself saying, "Jesus made the stars.....trees......my diapers....I love.....pizza.....chocolate." and there were some other things she said Jesus made and other things she said she loves thrown in there but between her whispering and the road noise I couldn't hear all of it. But, it was so precious to "be inside her head" when she thought no one was listening. Now, it's important to remember that during these alone times for Anna you can't let her know that you hear her or she gets upset and clams up. You can't turn around and say, "Anna, you like pizza??" because she'll say "No!" and won't talk anymore. :)

Things to Remember: New Necklace

Anna is so thoughtful. This morning I wore a necklace I haven't worn in many months. When I was putting Anna in her car seat this morning she reached out and touched it and said, "you have a new necklace, momma?" I felt what I had even put on and told her that I hadn't worn it in a long while and that Mimi gave it to me. She said, "it is from Mimi? It is pretty." Sweet girl. :)

Things to Remember: love actually

I can't stop laughing about Anna telling her teacher that she didn't hit her classmate but that, "she fell, actually." (the other girl really did just fall...she did pull someone's hair today though :/ and told on herself the second I came in the door) I don't know if we say "actually" a lot and just don't notice but where do kids come up with this stuff? "I don't want chicken, actually." Or "I don't want to go to bed, actually." Well, I actually don't care what you think you actually want! You're gonna actually eat the chicken and then actually go to bed! :) #gottalovetwoyearolds

Things to Remember: I know, you know

Tonight, Anna, B, and I were sitting on the couch watching Dora before Anna's bedtime and I started "bugging" her and asking questions. "How old is Daddy, Anna?" she said, "He's 2." Ok. What's his favorite color? "Purple?" Uh...ok. :) What's his favorite food? "Pink." At this point she wasn't focusing on the new question but on Backpack from Dora. Ha! But, I got her attention again and asked her "What's Daddy's favorite television show?" And, her repsonse? "I know, you know." We about died laughing. Not too sure if you're up on B rated tv shows theme songs but that is the theme song to Psych. Daddy watches this show daily and it is pretty funny...for a b rated older television show. ;)

The Friendly Indians Lyrics "I Know You Know"

In between the lines there's a lot of obscurity.
I'm not inclined to resign to maturity.
If it's alright, then you're all wrong.
But why bounce around to the same damn song?
You'd rather run when you can't crawl...

I know, you know, that I'm not telling the truth.
I know, you know, they just don't have any proof.
Embrace the deception- learn how to bend,
Your worst inhibition's gonna psych you out in the end.

I know, you know....
I know, you know....
I know, you know....
I know, you know....

Being Reminded to Reveal His Character...

"God desperately needs you to conquer your emotional issues because you are an important part of His grander plan. If you continue to wallow in the blahs, in anger, and in depression, the world will be missing out on the gift that you have been created to be. Say this prayer, My life is not about me and my feelings - my life is about serving God and revealing His character to my world." - From You Version's Bible App, "Holy Emotions - Bibilical Responses to Every Challenge."

I needed this devotional bad today. And, yesterday. Ha. More often than not, as much as I hate to admit it, I have my days where I get depressed, feel sorry for myself, and feel angry and frustrated about whatever is happening in my life at that moment. I sit there, wallowing in it, trying to justify why I can act like a big baby, and be short with those around me, because my problems are just so terrible. The guy who cut me off in traffic, the girlfriend who isn't acting like I want her to act, my husband because he didn't read my mind and know i wanted him to unload the dishwasher, my two year old daughter who is acting well, like a two year old, my boss who isn't responding fast enough to an email, my co-worker who isn't pulling their weight. The list of my woes goes on and on. And, aren't they just terrible?!

Get over it, Holly! My "problems" are NOTHING. I know I'm wrong. Which is why i try and justify it with a bunch of buts. But this and that. But, if only. So, I know what to do and so I pray. I ask for help and for forgiveness. I seek His word. I try and overcome and some days are harder then others. And, my problems aren't even big in comparision to the struggles of other people I know and those in the world who I don't know. I know other people who get caught up in this cycle too and when I hear them complaining it's so easy for me to say to myself, "What a baby! Get over it! That's nothing." It is easier to be a baby and think of yourself and want to wallow in the problem. But, days are better when you just let it go and it's days like this where God gives me just what I need and in this case it was through a daily devotional and turning to time with Him.

We live in a world that is so ME focused. What is in it for me? What do I get outta this? What do I gain by doing this? I deserve this and that. I better get x, y, and z. I need this. I need that. I'm just as guilty as the next person for wanting everything to go in my favor. And, I'm a baby. If it doesn't go my way I more often then not pout, throw a fit, cry, get depressed....on and on and on. What also really struck hom and makes it easy for me to get over myself was the last part of the devotional which says, "My life is about serving God and revealing His character to my world." My world is my husband, my daughter, my family, my friends, and my co-workers. Most, who are unsaved. What kind of message am I sending to them when I'm in a pissed-off, depressed mood? My JOB is to reveal His character to them. I need to work on this and it's good to know that God is in control and today's devotional was exactly what I needed. Isn't it funny how it always seems to work that way? God always gives you what you need to hear or read! Just gotta be paying attention.