Friday, January 4, 2013
Being Reminded to Reveal His Character...
"God desperately needs you to conquer your emotional issues because you are an important part of His grander plan. If you continue to wallow in the blahs, in anger, and in depression, the world will be missing out on the gift that you have been created to be. Say this prayer, My life is not about me and my feelings - my life is about serving God and revealing His character to my world." - From You Version's Bible App, "Holy Emotions - Bibilical Responses to Every Challenge."
I needed this devotional bad today. And, yesterday. Ha. More often than not, as much as I hate to admit it, I have my days where I get depressed, feel sorry for myself, and feel angry and frustrated about whatever is happening in my life at that moment. I sit there, wallowing in it, trying to justify why I can act like a big baby, and be short with those around me, because my problems are just so terrible. The guy who cut me off in traffic, the girlfriend who isn't acting like I want her to act, my husband because he didn't read my mind and know i wanted him to unload the dishwasher, my two year old daughter who is acting well, like a two year old, my boss who isn't responding fast enough to an email, my co-worker who isn't pulling their weight. The list of my woes goes on and on. And, aren't they just terrible?!
Get over it, Holly! My "problems" are NOTHING. I know I'm wrong. Which is why i try and justify it with a bunch of buts. But this and that. But, if only. So, I know what to do and so I pray. I ask for help and for forgiveness. I seek His word. I try and overcome and some days are harder then others. And, my problems aren't even big in comparision to the struggles of other people I know and those in the world who I don't know. I know other people who get caught up in this cycle too and when I hear them complaining it's so easy for me to say to myself, "What a baby! Get over it! That's nothing." It is easier to be a baby and think of yourself and want to wallow in the problem. But, days are better when you just let it go and it's days like this where God gives me just what I need and in this case it was through a daily devotional and turning to time with Him.
We live in a world that is so ME focused. What is in it for me? What do I get outta this? What do I gain by doing this? I deserve this and that. I better get x, y, and z. I need this. I need that. I'm just as guilty as the next person for wanting everything to go in my favor. And, I'm a baby. If it doesn't go my way I more often then not pout, throw a fit, cry, get depressed....on and on and on. What also really struck hom and makes it easy for me to get over myself was the last part of the devotional which says, "My life is about serving God and revealing His character to my world." My world is my husband, my daughter, my family, my friends, and my co-workers. Most, who are unsaved. What kind of message am I sending to them when I'm in a pissed-off, depressed mood? My JOB is to reveal His character to them. I need to work on this and it's good to know that God is in control and today's devotional was exactly what I needed. Isn't it funny how it always seems to work that way? God always gives you what you need to hear or read! Just gotta be paying attention.