When you're pregnant with your first child you get asked, "Are you ready for a kid?" And, even though some people say, "yes...we have everything ready. Clothes, nursery, crib, bouncer, bath tub..." the answer should be a resounding, "heck no!" It is a huge life change and there's nothing that can prepare you for it. Each child is different. Each parent is different both individually and together. Each family schedule is different as far as whether you work, stay home, decide on daycare, decide on keeping them home, whatever it is, every family schedule is different. There's just nothing that can compare you for a child.
When you're pregnant with the second you get the same question but, "Are you ready for two?" And, again, even though you probably already have the big things that the second child can use like the swing, and bath tub, and some clothes the answer this time for me is, "Ready as I'll ever be." (No!) I don't yet have two kids but I think it's the same as starting with the one child. Everything is different and adding another human to the mix cannot possibly make life easier.
How are we going to have to change our schedule to fit in Macy? How are we going to handle Anna when all of a sudden her whole little world is turned upside down and she no longer has the full, undivided attention of both of her parents to now having to share her time with her baby sister. We pulled out the swing and bouncer this week and it's been sitting in the corner of the living room. Anna loves pushing the buttons but we've had to constantly tell her, "Don't hang on it...it's for Macy." And, the little look on her face is so innocent and curious. I pulled out my phone and showed her a picture from 2.5 years ago when she herself sat in that swing. "See, you already got to use the swing. That's you in that very same swing when you were a tiny baby! Now, Macy will use it."
With only 2 days left as a family of 3 it's starting to really hit me that even though I've had 9 months to prepare and mentally think about it nothing can get me ready adding Macy to our family but faith in God that all is going to work out perfectly for us. I need to set aside the worry and the fears. "How am I going to get two ready in the morning and still get to work on time?" or "How's her little schedule going to look like?" or "How is Anna going to adapt to this huge change?" All these thoughts run through my head and I just need to give them to God. Everything will work out. One of Anna's favorite songs to sing to us is, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and He will make your path straight!" So, that's what we will do! Trust in Him, stop worrying and leaning on only what I know, acknowledge and thank Him for all he's done and He's going to make it all work out.