Imperfect progress

http://bible.us/r/8y.5 I just finished day 5 of No More Unglued Mama Mornings Bible reading plan at YouVersion.com.

I needed this in this moment. I have been trying all alone and not letting God guide my actions with Anna and potty training. I know. Potty training. But it is easy to get frustrated when you know your child can do it but she just doesn't want to. For months we've worked with Anna. Without fail she goes every morning before we brush her teeth. It is her routine so she happily does it. After that she may or may not go. Depending on if she is busy or not. But last Thursday I had had enough and decided we are not under any circumstances going to stop and "try again next week." She knows how todbo it. Knows when she needs to but for whatever reason, she may not even know why, she doesnt want to. Being wet or dirty doesn't bother her. But lately, the last two days she has seemed to be having accidents intentionally. The Dr told us that this is her controlling nature (wonder where she gets that from?) And this is something she has full control over. I'll ask her if she needs to potty and she says no and I'll be feeding Macy so I can't get up to take her. I'll tell her when I'm done we will go potty. Then when I'm done she says, I already peepeed in my pants. And she says it with a smile on her face. But, my reaction is out of frustration and quite honestly anger. She is such a smart girl. She knows better. But, I have to start fresh each day, each hour. Each minute. No more unglued momma moments.

Who's mother are you?

I found this blog post to be really powerful. I always skip through the genealogy in the verses I read but this shows that when you stop and see that the women who bore children who then bore children who are all in Jesus's family line it is pretty eye opening. The women were prostitutes, widows, harlets, and some by society seen as not worthy. But, they ended up being mother's to wondeful, wise, children and some who ended up as kings.

I know I'm not perfect and I see more and more of myself in Anna everyday. A lot of which I don't like at all. What am I teaching her when I'm not sitting on the floor showing her abc's and 123's but when I'm working on something and I huff and puff and say"grrrr!" When I'm frustrated.  She does that sound when she gets frustrsted now. It's embarrassing to admit but it's true. And I tell her  not to do it. Why would she not? She hears me do it. What am I teaching her when I gossip with a friend in front of her. What am I teaching her with my words to Blake? I know often times I'm not teaching her to be a virtuous women.

This was a good blog post I needed today. I so easily get frustrated and give up but this is my job. God gave me these babies and it's my job to bring them up by His standards.